Let me start off by saying I don’t have a ton of self confidence. I do in some aspects but I’m very self conscious about myself and my image. You would think I would have all the confidence in the world since I have a loving husband that adores me, a beautiful daughter that is the light of my life and I have a successful photography business but I have always struggled with my image to the world.
About a year ago, I did something that was totally out of my comfort zone. I had been working on loosing weight and I decided to do a Boudoir session with a very talented photographer that is very respected in her field. I had been watching her work on Facebook for over a year before I decided to contact her and then one night, I got the balls to actually fill out her contact form on her website.
I booked my session at least 4 months before my actual session was to take place and let me tell you, I was so nervous!
When it came to the day I was to do my shoot, I was more nervous that day then on my wedding day. I had prepared myself for my session physically but not mentally. When I arrived to her studio, she greeted me, took my suitcase full of outfits, shoes and props and I sat down to get my makeup and hair done by a professional MUA.
Once I was done getting beautified, it was time to start with my first outfit. I chose a little black dress to get myself comfortable in front of the camera. (Keep in mind, I’m never in front of the camera, I’m usually always behind it…)
We started and she took some shots and then turned the camera around so that I could see what she was seeing. I literally could not believe what I saw! It didn’t even look like me! I was in shock and it took all I had to keep the tears back when I saw myself.
It was the first time in a LONG time that I felt beautiful. Yes, I’ve been told I’m beautiful by my husband over the years and such, but I always just wrote it off because he’s my husband and is supposed to say that (LOL). But I hadn’t FELT beautiful in years and when I saw that first image, I just couldn’t believe how it looked and how it made me feel.
From that moment on, I rocked the rest of my session! My photographer would keep showing me sneak peeks on the back of her camera and my confidence just kept rising higher and higher! I was on cloud nine!
Then it came time to break for an hour so my photographer could go through my images and pick out her favs and edit them for me and then I would return for my ordering appointment (there is something to be said about doing your order the same day! It’s quite the experience!).
When I returned, she told me that she would just play the slideshow first and then we would go through them individually. Then she clicked the slideshow on and again, I couldn’t believe my eyes! There I was on her TV screen looking like a model but it was just me! I think if I smiled any wider, my face would’ve broke while the images were fading in and out on the screen. I remember I kept saying, “Ooooo! I like that one!” and “Oh my Gosh!” and “WOW!“.
After all of it was said and done, I walked out of her studio spending more than I thought I was going to on myself but let me tell you… it was worth EVERY PENNY!
I did the session for a birthday gift for my husband but now when I look back on it, I did it more for myself. This was something I needed to do and I’m so glad I did it. I finally looked at myself the way my husband does and feel the way I’ve always wanted to feel about myself. And now, every day I am reminded when I see the artwork of myself on my wall that I AM beautiful and that I should ALWAYS feel that way about myself.
I encourage everyone reading this to take the time to do something for yourself to make you feel as beautiful as you are on the outside as you are on the inside. Take a leap of faith and do a boudoir/glamour session or just go have some headshots done. Go get your hair and makeup done, nails, spray tan, whatever you want to do and have a talented photographer capture your beauty. Trust me, you’ll be glad you did it. Take the time to make yourself a priority for just one day (or at least one day every year, month, whatever works in your busy schedule) and do something that makes you feel good about yourself.
Makeup Artist – Blue Eye Studio